Sophia Sanford

http://sanfordsanford.com

Sanford is a singer, song-writer, producer and performer based on the northern Sunshine Coast in BC. She uses music to tell stories of her experiences in this life; usually the toughest ones. Singing, songwriting, and producing are a catharsis and a joy for Sophia. Her raw lyrics and lush vocal harmonies hold the weight of a life fully lived. Through heartfelt performances and evocative music videos, Sanford aims to share what she has seen with the world. And she has seen a lot.

Sophia Sanford

Crybaby is an audio piece that focuses on the complex fears I have experienced around identity and sexuality. I used field recordings of creaking trees and wind as well as layered vocal manipulation to capture the struggle against what I’ve been told is “right” and what I truly want. It explores themes of power dynamics, attachment theory, and the ways in which we behave when we lack the courage or strength to show up as our true selves. The term crybaby is an exploration of both the negative internal voices that can become so powerful, and the positive emotional release that can come from the completion of a difficult journey. Fear is an ever present theme in my work; it can inform our experiences in life so profoundly and left unchecked can be a controlling force.  It is through my creative practice of writing, recording, and producing music that I exorcise fear and deepen my connection with my identity. 

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installation view

Listen to Crybaby

This is a specially created audio piece mastered for the exhibition space, and is meant here as documentation only. This site-specific work is best experienced within the gallery space for which it was configured.

Crybaby (lyrics)

I think about the last time I held you

Anxiety about if I’ll ever get to

Again with the fantasy 

But I worry you’ll forget about me

I feel the flood gates flex beneath the fear 

 flex beneath the fear 

 flex beneath the fear 

 flex beneath the fear 

Hold me 

I’m a Crybaby 

Be mean 

Make me a crybaby

Scold me 

Like a crybaby 

When you come clean 

You’ll be a crybaby

I Scream 

Crybaby

I think about the first time I knew you meant it 

A rhythm on a beach dancing sunlight oh I felt it 

We’re happy we’re fancy free

In this life we live fantasies

I feel the flood gates flex beneath the fear  

 flex beneath the fear 

 flex beneath the fear 

 flex beneath the fear 

 flex beneath the fear 

 flex beneath the fear 

 flex beneath the fear 

I swallow the lump in my throat

I recite the verses I wrote

I sing every song note for note 

The only hope we have is hope